Reflection

I am a breath of fresh air, in a world that has grown stale. I am brimming over with life. I will be nothing like what you expected. Let me amaze you, let me inspire you, or just let me surprise you.

I live my life like a humming bird. I may not be huge, but I'm beautiful and bright. You'll also find I'm rather fragile; so handle with care. I live a fast paced life and match its speed and intensity with my own. Sometimes I get caught up and end up leaving my sanity back in the dust. I get my life force from within and from without. I'd call myself a "people" person and feed off of company. But I was also born with an innate drive to learn, experience, discover, and accomplish. I don't usually do things that I don't want to do, and I'm often very selfish. But I enjoy making people smile and laugh. I love giving good gifts, its almost as exciting as getting them. I'm not a detail oriented person and I tend to focus on the "gist" of things. I shall forever my by biggest critic and my journey to better myself will never end. I'm living my life story, wondering if anyone will want to read it. So help me fill it with excitement, dread, beauty, tragedy, joy and pain. Let us see how it'll end.

What I really need is someone who will recognize when I'm heading for a crash and burn, because I'm probably too busy talking away and dancing around to notice. I'm looking for the kind of guy who will be loyal and dependable while I'm being spontaneous and capricious. Someone who will be on the ground, waiting for me to fall from my skyward flight. I need a guy who's clever enough to keep me thinking. I'm looking for someone who is heading off the same mundane cliff I am, and will hold my had as we jump into the extraordinary.

I'm willing to love you with all my heart and my passion. I'm willing to work hard on a relationship and help it survive. I want to hear your stories, your dreams, and your problems. Let me offer you comfort, warmth and let me show you all that is good in the world. I'd love to try all the things you enjoy and be a part of them. Let me treasure you and brag about you to my friends. Let me drag you onto my roller-coaster of a life. It'll be one hell of a ride.

Walkin' in a Winter Wonderland

So, even though the snow has melted; I'm still very much in the holiday mood. The other day I tried to decide what was my favorite thing about Christmas...and I've decided that it is the music. I always get so excited when we start singing christmas music in Choir, or start playing it in Orchestra, because when we do; the memories just flood back! Some of my favorites are; Carol of the Bells, Breath of Heaven, Rockin' Around the Christmas Tree, Little Drummer Boy, Do You Hear What I Hear?, and Jingle Bell Rock. Nothing like turning up some good Mannheim Steamroller when you're decorating the tree! Christmas is, to me, also about family. We usually host Christmas at our home, it's the only holiday that we invite everyone over. My cousins drive from all over, some fly, and it's always chaos. Christmas always means babies. It's a time where I get to spend hours with all the little ones. Another thing is the cookie decorating, my cousin always comes over sometime this time of year, and we decorate over a hundred Christmas cookies for the party. This year, I'll be missing some of the party while I'm performing some Christmas music at my church. It'll be a huge service and my friend Matt has composed some music for me and my Viola, his Piano, and a Cellist. I'm also told that Pastor Steve will be singing. I'm really excited about it. Winter is such a romantic season, a much more intimate and meaningful time then your summer flings. But, I don't mind spending this Christmas alone, because I'll be at least thinking of someone special.

What about you?